trust issues

So, I was feeling worried about my new job at the end of last week, but this week has been the exact opposite. Isn't it funny how things can just turn around like that?

Well, I should say, it's a God thing. Because it is. I was so consumed with my own desire to feel welcomed and accepted that I couldn't see the opportunity that was given to me. I am truly blessed.

God is incredibly faithful and infinitely wise. No matter what the situation, if I choose to turn to God and do his will, I have peace.

My first memory verse was:

Philippians 4: 6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your requests to God, and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds, in Christ Jesus.

This verse has been so helpful and true to me.

I still get anxious and worry at times, but it doesn't consume me like it has before. I find that I don't dwell on things as often or for as long as I used to. The problem I kept having was basically a trust issue.

People would say, 'give it to God' or 'let go and let God', so, I would try to do this. (or so I thought) I would pray that God would take my worry or fear away. I would cry and beg for it to be taken from me. All the while, keeping a death grip on the problem because of my lack of trust.

Turns out, I wasn't really giving it over to God. I was saying it but I wasn't relinquishing control over it. Because I wasn't trusting God.

It's like, when my kids want to help me with something. I appear to let them help, but I'm usually standing guard or watching them like a hawk, ready to sweep in if they make a mistake.

But, if someone I trust offers to help, I can let them do it with peace of mind, trusting that they most likely won't mess it up.

As soon as I began to trust God, I was able to give him more and more of my life, knowing that he always works towards good in my life and that he knows better than I.

Peace at last.

Prayer for the day:

Thank you God for the peace that you give us. The peace that transcends all understanding. I love you God and want your will for my life. Stay close to me and guide me. I need you and want to be with you always.

Amen