What a funk I was in today. It was just one of those days for me . . . where there was just this undercurrent of negativity. Not from the outside, but coming out from within.
I had stayed up a little later than usual last night, talking with a friend and when the morning alarm went off, I stayed in bed a little longer. It was so easy for me to just roll over and fall asleep. This had put me a little behind schedule and I didn't have enough time to devote to my morning Bible reading and journaling.
God has been so faithful to me and has blessed me more than I could ever have done for myself. I had been making it a habit to get up early in the morning and spend time in the word and in prayer. It had become a cherished and hope filled act.
Without having that time this morning, my day just felt off. I felt negative and critical. Of course, I attributed it to the faults of others. Chuckle. ;)
The truth of the matter is that I was angry with myself for not prioritizing my morning. I consistently made decisions that would make it more difficult for me to keep my morning date with God. This disappointment in myself just seem to linger under the surface of all that I did.
I know that God loves me just as I am. He doesn't expect perfection and I am sure that I will continue to make wrong choices here and there. But, I am grateful for the knowledge that he has given me. I am grateful that he is merciful and loving and always good. He wants the best for me and he knows best. So, those times that I set aside in the mornings are times when I show up to receive these amazing gifts that he holds for us daily. Each and every day. We show up and he gives us his gifts.
Wisdom, love, security in him. The best part is that he meets us wherever we are. Physically as well as spiritually. Whether we are just meeting him for the first time or if we've had a long relationship with him. No matter what we've said, thought or done. He loves us. And he has gifts for us all.
Daily Prayer:
Lord, I thank you for your blessings in my life. Thank you for knowing me and loving me as I am. I know that you are generous with your wisdom and that it will bring me peace. I will seek your will for my life for as long as I live.
Amen
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